Networkers Fun

Well, Cisco Networkers is over for another year. Got heaps of learning out of the way, now have heaps of real work waiting to be done. Always the way. :P

Last night was the party was held at Dreamworld. My workmate was at Networkers with me came along, as did a friend of mine. It was lots of fun. They gave everyone silly big "Cat in a Hat" hats to wear. They gave us free food and free rides. We managed to get three rides in on the Tower of Terror straight up, one after the other, before the closed it because it started raining. Rained for the first half of the evening. Workmate piked and went home early. The rain stopped shortly after, my friend and I rode on more rides and had heaps of fun. She made me get my face painted with her. Was very amusing.

We then went and watched Jimmy Barnes play. It was hilarious to see all the geeks moshing infront of the stage with those retarded hats on. Towards the end, a whole heap of people threw the hats on the stage asking Jimmy to wear one. He refused, and at the end of the evening, after he got called back on for his encore, the rest of his bad put the hats on, so he gave in and put one on for a little bit. I recorded the video of it and posted it up on YouTube.

Click on the pic below to watch the video of Jimmy with the retarded hat on. :P


Here are a couple of pics from the night. :P


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Some Funny Pics

Am at the Cisco Netwokers conference all this week. Freaky nerds everywhere. Scares even a hardened geek like me. :P

Here are a few funny pics for you. Click for larger pictures. :)


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18 Again

Was talking with a friend just now about everything and nothing, and got onto the topic of memories from younger days.

She asked what age I would like to be again. Thats easy, 18!

I still had delusions that I was smart enough to do medicine. I had not yet had my heart really broken. I was still prepared to implicitly trust. I really believed I was so very clever.

I thought I would someday have a family...

Is that what is different now? The oppisite of those things. I'm not as smart as I thought I was? I have had my heart broken too many times? I can't trust others?

Ok. Here is the plan. First, I buy a Delorean. Next, I get some plutonium...

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Natural Arch

Dropped my kid brother home early this morning, and daring not to wake the girl up I left her behind to sleep in. She was awake by the time I got back. :)

We ended up driving down to Natural Arch to go for a swim. It was BLOODY COLD!!! The water was soooo cold that for the first 5 mins my skin felt like it was being burnt off my body. But after that, I stayed in for another half hour or so with no serious trouble. She was a coward though, and got out and warmed up sunbathing on a rock. (chuckle)

After that we went for a drive into the Numinbah Rainforest, following tracks up along the ridge and down into the next valley. We had a great time! She had never been four wheel driving before, and quite enjoyed herself. She turned out to be quite the navigator. :P

Here are some pics. Click for larger images.



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Drugs are bad m`kay!

2am. Wide awake! Need to sleep. Have to be up at 8am to take my kid brother home. Have just taken something that will make me sleep for 5 hours. That way I wont wake the girlie up.

She is wide awake too. (laugh) Working with images on her laptop for her work! Very important stuff. Could not possibly be done any other time. ;)

Have to stop typing now. I think she is going to hit me.

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Tamborine Mountain

Spent the day at Tamborine Mountain with my kid brother and a friend. Had fun bushwalking all the way down Curtis Falls. We were even quite norty and walked right down to the rock pool at the bottom (they have that part closed off because of rock falls).

I took heaps of pics, but the Sony camera I was using does not do so well in low light, especially with a silly bastard like me holding it. :P

Here are a few pics that did turn out ok. :) Click for larger pics. Be patient, they are higher res than normal.



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Benchmarking Happiness

So if I am not going to have a family and raise kids, what do I benchmark my happiness on?

If we go by the book, we are here to procreate, make a better life for our kids than we had as kids, and then stick around long enough to get some payback on the kids by spoiling their kids rotten.

But what if I have to go by a different book? How do I know I am happy? Right now I believe I am happy because I don't really allow myself to think otherwise. I am very disciplined at conditioning my thoughts to that end. When I start thinking about bad things, I'll get that analyzed real quick, and out of the way, then I will focus on the good things. I just don't give myself a chance to give serious thought to why I think I am happy.

But lets do that, for the purpose of this blog entry. Lets stop and think about what makes me happy. Here is the top five that I can pull out of my head right now, in no particular order.

1: My parents are reasonably well off and have a pretty good quality of life.
2: I have a great job and work for a company that really cares about me.
3: I am reasonably healthy, and don't expect to die anytime in the immediate future.
4: I have reasonable lifestyle security. I expect things to be this way for a while.
5: There are people in my life who love me and care about me.

Well, all of those sound like bloody good reasons to be happy. In fact, there are plenty of people in the world who have none of those things, and still find ways to be happy.

So, you can see how it is pretty easy for me to convince myself that I am happy with life. It all seems pretty straight forward, right?

But sometimes, just sometimes, I let my discipline drop, and I allow myself to think of the bad things. The things that upset me. The things that seem so overwhelmingly bad. And when I think such things, when I give such things enough attention to realise how really bad they are, it hurts. A lot!

I know it is normal to think such things. I understand it is very human, and my worries and concerns are quite natural. But while that offers me comfort and reassurance, it does nothing to stop the hurt. :(

If only I could find a way to stop the bad things hurting so much. Then maybe all those good things will be able to keep me happy all the time.

I'll just have to keep looking, I guess. Until then, it's business as usual. Chin up, shoulders back, big smile, deep breaths, and happy happy happy. :)

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Funny Network Problems

Heh. A workmate sits at his laptop getting all upset because he has lost his network connection.

Click for a larger image. Take note of the highlighted circle. ;)


Tee hee. :P

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Alarming Posts

I had a few people comment today (errm, past midnight, so Thursday) that my blog entry that I posted at 4am last night was somewhat... dramatic?

Well, it WAS 4am people. Normally I sanity check my posts before submitting them, just to make sure that what I am saying is not going to cause any sort of alarm.

Sure, a lot of my posts are "worrying", but I don't wish to cause anyone any actual concern. I don't want to alarm anyone in anyway.

So, that being said, everyone please rest assured that I am well. Not perfect by any means, but well enough. The lack of sleep is something I have tolerated for years. Those who know me well are quite familiar with it. It's just something I have learnt to live with.

It was only a problem last night because my problem was waking someone else up. When I am alone in bed, it does not cause anyone any problem if I am waking up every couple of hours throughout the night. :) Last night was just strange because I had someone in bed whom I was not snuggled up with. It's all good!

Seriously now, you are all making it out to be something terrible. It upsets me, yes. I would rather it did not happen all the time, sure. But all of you know me and spend time with me! You know that I appear to be well enough. So it's all good.

What you got to do is treat my blog entries as they are intended. Thoughts and musings that are fit for public consumption. Not private consumption. That is, you should not attach any private thoughts and feelings to them. Read it like I am just another pathetic anonymous person on the net that dribbles out utter crap on a weblog.

Yeah, laugh all you want! But remember, you are reading it! Doesn't that make you at least a little pathetic too. ;)

Had lunch with a loved one today. It was very strange. She was in a confrontational mood, and behaved a little strangely when I invaded her personal space to smell a perfume she was trying on. I am sad to admit that I think the dynamics of our friendship may have to change. It will hurt to lose the closeness and familiarity I have had with her for this past decade, but I fear it is a necessary step. I don't think that such an intimate friendship is healthy for her anymore. I hope she does not make it harder than it needs to be. :(

Well, I think I'll try to get some sleep now. I am alone tonight, so I should not have any problems. :)

My love to those who deserve it.

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Nieces Riding Quad

Looked after my nieces on the weekend. Amongst other things, I took them out to a mates property to ride around on my quad.

They each took turns riding by themselves, but strangely enough the younger of the two, who was riding it for the first time (the older one had ridden a few times before), took to it pretty quickly. She even spent time riding around with her sister on the back. In fact, after a while we ended up having to put a helmet on her because she was becoming quite fearless and going a little too fast for comfort. (laugh)

Here are a few pics I took of them. Click for larger images.



After I took them for some high speed rides around the property with all three of us on the quad. It was LOTS of fun. Those damn kids have NO fear at all. Amazing! :)

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Bad Dreams

For longer than I can really remember, I have been unable to sleep through the night. I wake up every 2 hours or so, and more often than not, cannot get back to sleep.

When I wake up, I always feel quite upset, sometimes even afraid. I don't know what is waking me. I never really remember what the dream was, but it is always the same. My breathing is fast and strong, my senses are instantly alert, and sometimes I even feel tears on my face.

But the strange thing is, it almost never happens when I have an intimate partner in bed with me. For some reason I am almost always able to sleep the night through if I have someone cuddled up to me.

What is really annoying about it though, is when I am sharing a bed with someone who I am not cuddled up to. I have a king sized bed. It is very possible to sleep on it with someone else, and hardly know they are there. And if they are on the other side of the bed, for some reason it does not help me. I still wake every 2 hours or so, just as upset as when I am alone.

Tonight a friend is over. We went to dinner and came back to my apartment and watched some movies before going to bed just after midnight. Since then, I have woken twice. The first time I was able to reach out, hold her hand, and after a while I was able to get back to sleep. But soon after, I was awoken by bad dreams again.

This time when I reached out to take her hand, she said in the darkness "Why do you keep waking me up?" Oh no! I did not realise I was waking her up! :( Now I feel bloody terrible. I had no idea I was waking her up when I woke!

I have snuck out to the lounge room, and am going to sleep on the couch. I feel a little calmer now, so hopefully will be able to get a couple more hours sleep before I have to wake up for work.

Why am I waking up so upset and scared? Why can't I remember the dream that is causing me such distress? Is there a dream? Is it possible that I am simply awakening this way for some chemical reason that has nothing to do with my sleeping mind?

Why does it not happen when I have someone to hold in my sleep?

I think I am not well. It is not good that I keep waking up someone who is sleeping beside me. I am well adjusted to only sleeping a few hours a night. But I don't want to be waking up someone I share a bed with every couple of hours. That just sucks.

Now I have upset myself again. :( I don't think I can calm down enough to get back to sleep now. This is so unfair. What is wrong with me?

I am so damn tired. I miss a loved one. I wish she was here to hold me. :(

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Mum has a digital camera?

My mum and dad came back from a few weeks holiday south of the border. They had a great time. She asked me to take a look at some of the pics she took with her digital camera. She has a digital camera?

Apparently she has been taking pics on it for a while, since Christmas actually. With a 512Mb stick inside it, she just kept snapping photos without worrying about getting them off.

Anyhow, I grabbed a handful of the better pics so that I could pop them on my blog. Lots of pics of the doggie of course, but some other things too. That one of me having the crazy evil face on Christmas morning is hilarious. :P The pic my mom took of the sunset is gorgeous. And my nan's cheeky smile is a winner. :) Click for larger pics.



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The Twelve Apostles

A mates wife emailed me through a pic she took earlier this week when she was flying above The Twelve Apostles in Victoria.

It is a VERY nice pic. Normally you only get to see pics of these limestone stacks from the cliff edge, as you can see in the Wikipedia article linked above. But this pic that she took is... Awesome! :D

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Car Crash Drama

Working back late tonight. A workmate called and said he saw a car smash on his way home. I was bored while the server was doing stuff, so I figured I'd go take a look.

According to some witnesses at the scene, the red car (WRX?) was coming down the exit ramp off the Inner City Bypass, turned across the path of the blue car (no idea) that was about to jump onto the ICB. The red car was turning with a green light, the blue car ran a red. Nice work. :)

Some pics and stuff. Sorry bout the quality. Sony camera is not made for low light use without a tripod. :P Click for larger pics.



Pwned! :P

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See! He IS a dentist!

Still had to blur his back face, so we don't steal his soul behind his back. :P



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ANGRY HANDS!!!

One of my workmates has this problem where he does not like his photo being taken. I think it is because he is worried it steals his soul or something. :P

I was trying to snap a photo of him in the car, and eventually managed to get one without his hands infront of his face. This is his "ANGRY HANDS!!!" look.

He made me blur his face before I was allowed to blog the pic. Maybe he thinks he is a dentist! :P

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It is like poking at a loose tooth.

Reading through old blog entries from years back makes me sad. :(

I wonder if it will always do that. Will I read this blog entry years from now and feel sad that I felt sad?

I miss loved ones. :(

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George Steinmetz Sand Camels Pic

The pic below was taken by George Steinmetz for the Turkish Edition of the National Geographic Magazine.

It is a very cool pic that he took from the air in his motorized paraglider. The cool thing is, the shadows of the camels (yes, the little white lines are the camels) look just like the actual camels from above.

As reported in this Snopes.com article, the pic was voted one of the best of 2005. I like it. :) Click for a larger pic.



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Proving Myself Wrong

Here is a change for you all. I've been thinking things over. Just for a laugh, I thought I'd give this thinking stuff a go.

Yeah right! Like I will ever stop thinking too much about things and just "roll with it". See, that's the whole problem, I even catch myself thinking about how much I think about things. I just can't be free of it.

So, as long as I am going to keep "thinking thoughts about things" I might as well try and get something done while I am doing it. You know, solve some problems, work some shit out.

Well, that kinda gets me nowhere. The more I think about the things that trouble me, the more thinking I have to do about it. Never ends! But I am sure you all know that feeling already.

Well, enough ranting about thinking, let me share my time consuming thinking things with you.

First up of course, the ongoing saga of being genuinely discontent. Is that a real word? The spell checker says it is. Anyhow, the crux of it is the problem of not being happy with my lot in life. Quite selfish and self centered I know, but I never claimed to be more than human.

So, what the hell am I going to do about it? Well, I don't really know. I guess I'll have to think on it. :|

Moving right along... My thoughts are never far from the topic of love. Ironic seeing as there is so little of it to be had. But therein is the problem. Got plenty of it to give. Finding someone who wants it is tough. There is always someone or other that tolerates being the focus of my love for at least a while. Some accept it for longer than others. But inevitably, they find someone better and... Well, you know the rest I am sure.

At any rate, we end up with some two very big questions. Firstly, why do I need so much to give unconditional love, especially when I am so prepared to not get it in return? Secondly, is that more significant than it appears at first? I mean, how would it appear to my partner in a relationship if my need to show love was so unbalanced from my need to be loved?

I try to use empathy here to put it back to me. How would I feel if my partner was so eager to give me her unconditional love, but was not just as eager to have me show her the same unconditional love.

And therein lays the problem. I am clearly too bloody stupid to see the answer to that question. Because when I think about it like that, I don't see a problem with it. Other than having some small questions regarding self worth and such things, I'd be prepared to be flattered by that kind of devotion.

But some part of me, some part that defies analysis and demands for clarification (but clearly is the sanest part in all this), keeps demanding that I accept the apparent facts.

I fear that this is one of my greatest flaws. Maybe I don't think I am as wonderful as I think I am... No wait, that does not make any sense when I type it. Ummm... Maybe I am lying to myself when I say I believe I am a better person for wanting to give unconditionally.

Maybe that makes me flawed. Maybe it is evidence of some sort of poor self esteem I have for myself. I don't "feel" that I have low self esteem when I think about who I am.

(laugh) What if I am too damn clever for my own good. It would be hilarious it turns out that I am so clever I fooled myself into thinking that I think I am wonderful. Yeah, I re-read what I typed. It looks stupid. But read it fast and it kind of makes sense.

I've got a huge grin on my face right now as I am typing this. I am thinking it would be so funny if I somehow worked out that I was wrong all along, and that it was me who proved I was wrong. The internal inconsistencies in that are comical. Would I fight with myself insisting that I am right, because I believe I am always right. (laugh)

Alright, yes, I think I am losing it. I'll shut up now. I would not want any of you thinking that I am any more of a loon than you already do. :P

I'll go off and think in private. Safer for you all that way. :)

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New Apple iPod Shuffle

WANT!



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A Shelly Bow! :P

Here is a pic a workmate snapped with her cellphone this morning. :)



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Doggie Pics from the Archive

Ok, I'm on a roll! :)

Here are some pics of my gorgeous doggie that I had posted to my old gallery site ages ago. Some of you will have seen them already, but here they are again anyway. :)



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Pretty Aurora Pics

Just to show off the javascript a little more, here are some of my favorites from the APOD aurora pictures collection. Well worth a look if you care for such things. :)

As usual, click on a pic to look at it, and with the javascript goodness, you can click next and previous (or even use the N and P keys) to move thru the pics. The caption's are clickable links that will take you to the APOD page for each pic. :)



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More Image Goodness

So this new javascript thingie has the ability to let you browse through a series of pictures nice and easy too. It even goes and pre-fetches the next picture before you click on it, so it appears quicker as you move through. Very funky.

Here are some aircraft type pics I blogged a few years back. Click on one of them and see what I mean about scrolling through them. Very cool. :)


Tee hee. :)

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Funky New Image Code

A mate pointed me to this nice Lightbox JS java code that does this funky style overlay thingie for when you want to view pictures on the page.

Traditionally, when I published pics in my blog, I'd publish a thumbnail and when you click on it a full sized image opens in a new browser window.

Well now it does a funky overlay thing. So here is a sample image. This is one that I took on a client site of a pretty funny "floor mounted network switch". :P

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Pretty cool eh. :)

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Failed Again

:( Dammit! Failed again. Did better this time, but still failed. Stupid bloody marketing speak crap crap CRAP!!!

Can't resit till Monday either. This is not going to go down well. :|

Bummer dude!

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Maybe I Can Cheat

Oh no. I have a Cisco certification exam this afternoon. I have already failed this one once, and I have spent a good 10 hours this past few days going over the study material again. I am having serious trouble retaining it. It's all "marketing speak", and is VERY light on the actual tech.

I have a logical brain. The tech comes naturally without effort. But this marketing crap is just hurting my brain. I am not confident that I am going to pass the bloody thing. Too...much...stress!!!

On a lighter note, some of our field tech's took a pic of an existing antenna mast on a client rooftop. The caption emailed around with the pic was "rooftop security". These boys have far too much time on their hands. :P

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Must run. Try and get a few more hours of study in before I have to sit this exam. Myabe I can pass it. :|

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Friday Friday Yay

Hoorah! It's Friday!!! :)

Today is going slow, and being somewhat troublesome, but at least it's Friday, and so far I have no work on this weekend. Yay!!! :D

No plans for the weekend. Think I'll just hang around wherever doing whatever and just enjoying the rest. :)

Phone's ringing. Must run. Enjoy your Friday everyone!

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Texas Hold`em Poker

I got to say, this is a seriously addictive game. I have been playing it on and off, for the past few years, in various shapes and forms. Both for real money and for play money.

It is a great game! You just dont get bored with it. I got a copy on my PSP, and it is loads of fun to play. Very enjoyable way to relax after a hard day at work.

Well, I'm off to play some poker. :)

I miss her... :(

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Another Long Workday

(sigh) Another long workday it seems. Have been on a client site all day, and have just been informed that I will need to work back into the evening so that outage work can be done outside of business hours. Dammit!

I am hungry and tired. I still have to find time to study for these exams. I have a terrible headache. I want to go home!

I wish there was someone to go home to. Maybe then I'd have the motivation to tell them all to shove it and march on home.

Tired! Hungry! Unhappy! :(

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Flaws Flaws Flaws

Home and resting in bed. It's been a long day. Had to drive up to the Sunshine Coast this evening to give a vendor presentation. I only had the chance to view the presentation a few minutes before I had to give it, so I hope I did not do too badly. The client seemed happy enough, so I guess it was all good. Got a free meal out of it at least. :)

Work is so very busy and stressful, and to top it all off, the company needs me to pass 3 Cisco certification exams within the next week. So I will have to find some way to fit study time in amongst all the work. No free time for me for the near future. :(

Let me share something that is causing me some emotional distress right now. Hey, if you are silly enough to read this bloody blog, then you deserve what you get. Anyhow, here is the deal.

Ever since I was mature enough to have clear enough thought to consider such things, I was able to analyze my personal long term needs and recognize that my long term goal was to have a family and make a difference. I am sure most of you know exactly what I am talking about. I mean, it's kinda the reason we are here... To procreate and make the lives of our children better than the lives we had.

But there is a problem. To do this, you need to find a partner. Not just any partner, but one that will stick it out with you and make a decent go of it. No point in putting all that effort in if it is all destined to fall apart before you get a chance to be a parent for the children.

Now we get to the crux of the issue. I accept everyone is flawed. It is the nature of things... The nature of being human. The trick is to find someone who can live with your flaws, and has flaws that you can live with. But, now stick with me here, this is where it all falls apart. What if the very flaws that someone has are flaws in the fundamental attributes that are required to make it possible for your partner to "stick it out"? What if the flaws that someone has make it so that it just is not possible for a partner to be able to stay with them? What then?

I could be a "typical male" and blame them. I could sit and bitch about how hard done by I am, and how baldy treated I have been, and how terrible it is that I am so cheated by each of them...

But that just is not how it is. When I stop and think about it all, the problem quite clearly lays with me. Each time, with each partner, I have made fundamental errors which simply can not be anyone's fault but my own. The poor judgments are clearly my own!

How can so many of my judgment calls regarding partners be so completely wrong? Statistically, the only way to account for this is to look at the common element in each of the relationships. Me! For some reason, I choose partners who are simply not capable of living with my flaws.

So, lets for the sake of argument agree I have critical flaws in the attributes that matter when it comes to making a relationship work. Lets continue by agreeing that these flaws can be identified. And if they can be identified, they can be changed. Right?

And now, ladies and gentlemen, we have the revelation. They are attributes that form the core parts of my personalities. I simply cannot discard them. When I try, and I have, I end up so unhappy because I am not being myself. And before too long passes, I cave in and revert back to my beloved flawed self.

So smarty pants, what are these terrible flaws? Well, I am not too proud to admit them. Here they are:

- I am a hopeless romantic. I am so dependent upon the romance of a relationship that my overwhelming need for it ends up compelling my partner to dislike it.

- I am ALWAYS right. I can't bloody help it. If I believe I know something, and I can reason it with logic, then I MUST have it shown to me with logic and reason I consider valid before I will accept I am wrong. This is such a terrible burden, but I just can not escape it. And lets face it, if I did not believe I was right, why the hell would I be arguing about it?

- I am too quick to trust that someone is inherently good. And even if they do prove to be good, I am so lost in that good that I cannot see the little bits of bad until they become the big bits of bad that break my heart.

- I am too stubborn to forgive broken trust. For someone who is so very aware of my own flaws, I am so terribly unforgiving of someone who breaks my trust, especially when it comes to matters of love. How many wonderful futures have I lost because I could not forgive?

- I cannot stop analyzing it all!!! Oh my god, it drives ME crazy, and I can only imagine what it does to my partners. I think too much. I just think and think, and I am always applying irrelevant logic and reason to matters that have no business being considered with logic and reason. It is so stupidly retarded, but I can't help doing it.

Are you still reading this blog entry? Why!!! Can't you tell when some crazy guy is just ranting!!!

I thought I had come to terms with the reality of my new life goals. I trusted I was going to find a way to be happy without having a family to dedicate my life to. I believed I was strong enough and smart enough to find away to be happy on my own.

But I am not. All of my loved ones around me have families. They all have... purpose.

I want purpose. :(

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Calm Blue Ocean

I am having a terrible morning. :(

A mate sent me to his blog to look at some pics of him and his wife and their baby boy. Could not have done it at a better time. Has calmed me down and made me smile.

Click here to go to his blog entry.

Oh well, back to work now. :|

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Crikey!

How's that. Steve Irwin cops a stingray barb to the heart. What a way to go! The irony of it was, he was filming a documentary about stingray's to show people they were not the dangerous creatures myth makes them out to be, and to help stop them being persecuted. Poor bastard.

Was onsite yesterday and skipped lunch, which is bad because I skipped breakfast too. Ignored the symptoms of low blood sugar thinking I'd get away any moment and be able to grab some lunch. By about 2:30pm I paid attention to the clammy skin, bad headache, and what tipped me off, the anxiety. I got some juice and barley sugar lollies from the staff at site, and I think I was pretty close to not getting it in time. Silly me.

And to pay for it, around 5pm a monster of a migraine hit me. Nausea, dizziness, pain. PAIN!!! Hurried home and slept fitfully till about midnight. By then the worst of it was past, and I slept like a baby till 5am. Normally I can head those things off before they get there, but I kinda ignored the warning signs because I was so busy with work. That'll teach me.

Stress is starting to get to me. Must find a way to manage it a bit better methinks. Got to run for now, heaps of work to do. :(

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Dog Cat Mouse

Have spent the day at a mates place with my doggie so that he can get out of the house. Mate bought two feed mice from the produce store, but the problem is, nothing wanted to eat them. They did not behave like prey.

We let one loose in the yard. It just stood there. My doggie and my mates doggies just stood there and looked at it, and the mouse just stood there looking at them. My doggie usually hunts wild mice and kills them good, so it was very amusing to see Junior standing there staring at the mouse not knowing what to do with it.

Well, we let another mouse loose inside so that his cat could learn to kill mice and manage mice problems at the property, but the bloody mouse did not behave like prey, so the cat did not really treat it like prey. He has some pretty hilarious pics in this blog entry. The last pic is hilarious.

Took Junior for a ride on the quad out into the bush land so that he could run about and sniff new things. He enjoyed it. It was pretty funny to see him run back and jump on the quad when he was ready to keep going to someplace else. :P

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